January 21st, 2014

Welcome to the dark side

So today i got scolded by T. When i’m not even at fault. I feel so fucking aggrieved.

Yesterday, the associate asked me if the slides are ready and i said i have not finished it. Then he told me: “nvm, i don’t want to see it now (yesterday) anw but get it done by the end of today.

So i sent it to him at 3pm today.

At 6pm, he went to look for T regarding the slides and T scolded me. She said:”why didnt u get it done earlier?” Me: “i was doing your slides simultaneously too and he said the deadline was today”. she: “edna i usually dont scold ppl but u r a pupil and if u need to finish ur work then stay back late. I stay back late everyday. tonight u can go back n rest but i have to read all these until 2-3am”

Hello. Precisely im just a pupil and i only earn 10% of ur pay. Why should i stay back as late as u?? Besides, i come in 1 hour earlier than u everyday. its really unfair to compare our working hours. And i wasnt late in submitting, i was, in fact, early!!! U claim u r v busy but u spent the whole afternoon scolding the accounts team when u could have more efficiently spent this time reviewing the slides! And the stupid associate knew he had to let T review the slides then he should give me an earlier deadline right. And T assumes that i have v little work to do. But she has no idea how doing 3 diff set of ppt is no easy feat. And this is on top of other misc stuff/emails. Most importantly, she didnt even give me a chance to explain.

No one in this firm is sane and reasonable.. Hopefully i can find greener pastures elsewhere and wont have to stay in this hell hole.

October 18th, 2013

In my own life, I tend to see the best in everyone and value honesty above all else. I trust until I’m given reason not to. But how many of us have dated someone we trusted implicitly until that point came when you thought, ‘Who is this person? Where is the person I fell in love with?’ And then you feel you’ve been had. Manipulated. Deliberately betrayed.

Along the way, those initial ‘harmless’ lies grew larger. They told you everything you wanted to hear and everything they wanted to be. But as time went on, pretending to be something they were not proved impossible.

You realize you fell in love with a phony, the ‘perfect’ picture he or she painted of a person he or she will never amount to. The person he or she (and you) had hoped they’d be, never actually existed. You became emotionally invested in a stack of untruths, a victim of your own optimism.

October 11th, 2013

elementarymydearworld:

For a long while now I have suspected that connection with another person, real connection, simply isn’t possible. I’m curious if you disagree, although I suspect you feel as I do in this, as you do in so many other things. So tell me; is it possible to truly know another person? Is it even a worthwhile pursuit?

Yours is the only opinion I’ll trust, the only point of view that holds even the faintest interest. I find my diversions, as I always do, but the days are long in this grey place.

I dearly hope you’ll write soon.

Ever Yours,
Jaime Moriarty

October 8th, 2013
September 30th, 2013
When she is happy, she can’t stop talking, when she is sad she doesn’t say a word.
 Ann Brashares (via fassadenmensch)

(Source: psych-facts, via makeitsassy)